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So Ji Sub [MAGAZINE] I LOVE STAR, December 1997.

[MAGAZINE] I LOVE STAR, December 1997.

"I am the main character in my life!!" ~by So Ji Sub, 1997
-Quitting Modeling, "Ready Go" TV personality So Ji Sub-

From Youngsosa Café, News Section
Posted by Shinmi on May 8th, 2003

(BIG LETTERS on photo:
"Instead of being a star, I want to become a seasoned actor with acting skills." )

I, So Ji Sub, debuted as a model for the Fashion Catalogue <STORM> and as an
actor in the SBS-TV drama "Model.". I am presently working on the opening scenes
for the MBC-TV Youth Drama "Ready Go." Until now, I had been working as an
unpolished model, giving unpolished performances. But now, I am in the process of
coming up with a So Ji Sub STYLE. What would I like to hear people say? "Indeed,
that's So Ji Sub. That character would not have been possible without him."


I have a healthy physique, but my personality is introverted, and rather than bright,
I have many dark corners which leaves such gloomy impressions of myself. Right now,
I am working hard in trying to change that and make my personality brighter. Since
exercising was all I knew, I may be really ignorant(?) but still, in so many ways, I am
a fine man!!


Really, without kidding, would you believe me if I tell you I always wanted to become
an ordinary white-collar worker? The most I would dream of was to open a Sports
Center one day, if that can be considered a dream. I was interested in modeling, but
I had never thought this would actually happen to me. And right now, my dream is to
succeed as an actor.

Working for the drama "Model" was important since it gave me a basic foundation
in acting. Through that, I was able to experience what acting is all about. This being
my first time acting, I was really worried that I kept on reading the script again and
again, so much that the paper got all scrappy and old. However, once filming started,
my mouth would not open. This got worse if I had to speak looking straight in the eyes
of my co-casts. Who acted as my older sister? Wasn't she the famous super star Kim
Nam Joo sunbae (older colleague)? The same thing happened with Jang Dong Gun
sunbae and Han Jae Suck sunbae. How would I have dared to look straight into
their eyes?

This is how I started this drama, but while monitoring my own acting I was so
embarrassed I had to watch it by myself, hiding from others. "That guy over there,
is that really me? I really look like a fool." I had thought to myself. I think it was a
good experience since it taught me how to become part of the surrounding with body
and soul. Nevertheless, I cannot be satisfied with that. Right now, I want to challenge
myself into real acting, as a real actor. No more try outs, once is enough, and I don't
want people to label me as a newbie anymore. My dream is to get rid off the title of an
inexperienced beginner and thus stand as a recognized actor.


What I have learned while acting has to do with my self-confidence. I have always
been lacking of it. I know that if you have too much confidence, you can appear to
be arrogant and rude. That's why what I need is just the right amount of confidence
that can boost me without hurting others. I am about to start a new drama soon but
this is very different than the previous "Model" where my lines were overshadowed by
so many big names. In the youth drama "Ready Go," which will be performed by a
young cast, I need to concentrate more on the lines. I haven't been able to fully
understand my character yet but since this is a drama that pays attention to each
character individually, I feel this will help me in building my confidence. Right at this
very moment, what I really want is to have the right amount of confidence, in order
to act well, so that I can do my best for my new role.


I really had a tough time during my High School years. Back then, all I thought about
was how on earth will I be able to survive this hell? I am the only male figure at home.
In a household without a father, I had always felt an unspoken responsibility living
with my mother and older sister. Neither my mother nor my sister ever pressured me
in any ways, but I had always felt a heavy burden on my shoulders. I knew nothing
but sports, and yet the days seem to be going by so routinely and pointlessly. I saw
no way of escape from that. The fact that I was able to get out of such hellish situation
is due mostly to my fighting spirit and to my mother's trust. My mother was always
a strong supporter of anything I did, and she would never check on me nor would
she get disappointed. Right now I am confident I can support my home the way I was
supposed to.

I have lost some weigh so far. After exercising for 11 years I had taken a break
because of modeling and acting, and unawares I have grown heavier. Thinking that
I should take care of myself as an actor, and that I have to overcome my
weaknesses helped me. The following also helped me strive harder. Not wanting
to go through another hell like experience, where my life may take undesired turns,
I decided to discipline myself and go through a severe self-training.


It was during the Premier Show of the drama "Model." I surely came out in the first 2
episodes of the drama, but I couldn't attend the Premier Show. No one had invited me.
That felt bad, or even worse than that. That feeling was closer to sorrow. Since there
were so many famous stars in the drama, the role which I was playing was so small
at first that the producers may have overlooked me. But this was why I was hurt all
the more. I was not hurt by anyone in particular. I was just feeling so insignificant
carrying the title of a newbie. Nevertheless, I decided to move on and to forget my
hurt feelings. I felt it was too early for me to expect so much while I haven't even
built a base.

Instead of being suddenly cast as the main character from the beginning and being
in the spot light, I'd rather walk up the ladder one step at a time. And thus I will stand
on center stage. Only if I understand how hard it is to walk up that road, will I be
able to stimulate my hoobaes (the younger generation) and be a friend without
self-conceit. After having built such diverse experiences, I think I'll have the freedom
to become a better actor.


I get this question a lot. Before becoming a Stomp Catalogue model, I had a friend
aspiring to become a model. He found an ad from Stomp Catalogues about an opening
there so all I did was to go along with him in sending my application. The end of the
story is always the same. My friend who really wanted failed, and I who was tagging
along without much thought, got in.

Of course, since I could start acting only because of modeling, that small incident has
now become important. And the friend who failed is now studying music and closely
monitoring my acting. [i]Until now, destiny has taken me through many extremes.
This is not what I had longed for before, but I can see the boundaries are changing
before my eyes, and I feel this may be the providence from above. However, I will
not continue thinking this is 'heaven's providence' or 'destiny' and stop right there.
I still haven't figure out who I am, but the road I must take is set, be it a clean
asphalt or a dusty and muddy road. Whichever it is, I will walk up that road with
my own efforts. Even if I grow tired while walking, I won't borrow someone else's
car. I may have to cut a branch of a tree and use it as my clutch, and the night
may fall while I take a break, but I won't depend on the good fortune anymore,
nor will I let other's hands to carry me. I am the main character of my life!!

**Translated by Priscilla, Posted at 6/14/2005 6:58:18 PM

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